AKA L, El, Justus, Ryuzaki, Hideki Ryuga
:atrea-logo: L as an animal
SEX & GENDER Male (he)
SEXUALITY
HEIGHT 179 cm
WEIGHT 85 kg
NATIONALITY British
LANGUAGES English (native), Japanese
DOB *** 31.10.1979**
DOD
“IQ”
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### ABOUT
**L** is a world-renowned detective who takes on the challenge of catching the mass murderer known as Kira. In his investigation, L becomes suspicious of Light Yagami and makes it his goal to prove that Light is Kira.
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- **Likes**: Sweets
- **Dislikes**: Socks
- L is one of the main investors of Wammy‘s, since he has a history of being a student here and wants to support children like himself. He‘s keen to hand out hefty scholarships for the kids with the most potential.
- Elliot ist Vollwaise. Sein Vormund ist Quillsh. Er lebt dauerhaft in Wammy’s (mindestens 5 Jahre, wenn wir davon ausgehen, dass er mit 8 dorthin gekommen ist, ist er mindestens bis er 13 ist dort). Als Teen ist er ziemlich bitchy und aufgedreht und rebelliert heftig gegen Quillsh. Quillsh kann mit Elliot nicht umgehen und behandelt ihn suboptimal, hängt aber emotional sehr an ihm. Einmal bittet Quillsh Elliot zu sich und Elliot kann grade gar nicht copen, Autismus wegen. Ist aufgedreht, zappelt und kurz vor nem Meltdown. Quillsh verucht ihm aber ständig, “normales” Verhalten aufzuschwätzen und Elliot stinkts. So von wegen, jetzt setzt dich mal normal hin Junge und so. Und Elliot beugt sich zwar, aber der Meltdown ist nicht mehr aufzuhalten. Man sieht richtig, wie der Junge bröckelt, versucht, sich zurückzuhalten, während Quillsh versucht mit ihm Konversation zu machen und alle seine Symptome wegignoriert. Und Elliot bricht, schnappt sich irgendwie die Tasse mit zum Glück nur noch lauwarmem Kaffee und schmeißt die Quillsh über und rennt aus dem Büro.
- Sein Deckname “L” kommt vielleicht daher, dass Quillsh ihn “El” als Kurzform von “Elliot” als Spitznamen genannt hat?
- At the age of eight, L was found by [Watari](<https://deathnote.fandom.com/wiki/Watari>) and taken to the orphanage known as Wammy's House, a home for gifted children.
- Part of L’s affinity for sweets came from Watari and Roger attempting to get L to gain some weight. Upon arriving at Wammy’s House, L was severely malnourished and showed no interest in eating enough healthy proteins to put on weight, so Watari and Roger reluctantly started offering him sweets as a last-ditch effort. The sweets did nothing to help him gain weight, but he *did* end up wanting to eat sweets almost exclusively. This isn’t to imply that L *only* ever ate sweets, though. He wasn’t opposed to eating regular food- he would just add sugar to it the way most people add salt and pepper. Spaghetti? Sugar. Carrots? Sugar. Steak? Sugar. Basically anything that was typically eaten savory? He added sugar to it.
- "enigma, and someone, that if you sat next to on the subway with you would probably move to the other side.”
- L came to Wammy’s at 8 years old, so in ~November 1987
- L hat ne villa irgendwo in schottland im nirgenwo. und da arbeiten leute, die für ihn kochen etc und die wissen aber gar nicht, für wen sie arbeiten. watarai kennen sie. und manchmal steht l hiterm fenster und einpaar kinder beobachten ihn aus der ferne und l kommt aber nie aus seinem dachboden oder so raus. ist immer am arbeiten. und er hat aber sporadischen Kontakt zu einem nachbarsehepaar (sehr alt). und die sind ganz lieb und l denkt sich “ja bei denen ists egal ob die mich kennne oder nicht”
- When he’s around for a visit at Wammy’s, L behaves like he’s still one of the kids. He raises his hand for every question he has.
> “Quillsh, can I go to the toilet?”
”El, you don’t have to ask and you don’t need to raise your hand.”
”But there are rules here.”
”Yes. For the ***kids***.”
>
- It’s easy to interpret canon orphanage Watari as this evil scientist patron that wants to make an army of little super detectives but I think that’s kind of boring and flat. I like stories where characters are competent and good and life still forces lemons down their throat. Because sometimes things just suck, nobody has to be evil for that.
My Watari founded a boarding school for twice exceptional kids without the premise of experimenting on vulnerable kids and I like to think of him as genuinely caring about helping those kids. Not in person, like a teacher or father kind of figure but in providing the funds for building an environment where they can be a little more themselves. I didn’t research adoption stuff yet, so I don’t know if Watari actually adopted L as his son or not but I don’t think so. I see Watari more of a legal guardian and the two are bound together but not in a family kinda way. Watari never intended to take a father role for L and L never saw him as that either. I headcanon Watari putting a lot of expectations and pressure on L at the start and L quickly started to despise Watari. It got especially bad when puberty hit for L. Watari keeps summoning L to his office, scolding him, correcting him, trying to fit him inside this perfect mold he has in his mind for L to fit in and L just loses it every time. They scream at each other a lot, maybe L even starts throwing things at Watari. They are terrible at communicating.
I can imagine L got bullied by his peers for his relationship to Watari because even if Watari tries not to overdo it, L gets special treatment. They take extraordinary trips in the holidays because "you need to see the world, boy, you need to experience it firsthand at least once", he supplies L with basically anything as long as L can sell it to Watari as "yeah I definitely need this for school". And of course the other kids go "Oh you get special treatment because you got adopted by the rich old man that visits every now and then? And it's even the founder of this school? Yeah run to daddy you supercilious oaf."
I want Watari and L to have some kind of reconciliation event where everything goes down the drain and they’re kind of forced to work together and find a way to communicate without bashing each others head in. They leave Wammy's together shortly after this and start working together on this whole worlds best detective thing.
- British parents; actual orphan
- Bri’ish accent; doesn’t care much about proper pronounciation in foreign languages
- L isst ALLES. Im Übermaß. Hat aber eine Schwäche für bestimmten Süßkram.
- L is **NOT sporty** and most definitely NOT a tennis champion. Der hat auch ne ganz ungesunde Fettverteilung. So overall sieht der recht schmal aus, hat aber nen Bauch.
- **L was once a student at Wammy‘s** but he had a different alias back then (I‘m imagining he chose something super cringey like "Justus“ - latin for "the righteous"). So the staff that‘s still in charge there when he was a student remembers him when he comes around but nobody (besides Roger and Watari) know that this is the person behind the great detective alias L. Officially, this "Justus“ guy is one of the big sponsors of Wammy‘s, so they welcome him with open arms when he pays the school a visit. L makes sure to keep his distance to the kids and to only interact with the staff when he‘s there. There‘s one exception though: the special assignments.
- L hat sau schlechte Zähne. Die sind nicht nur schief, sondern er hat auch ständig Karies. Eigentlich bräuchte er mal ne Zahnspange und regelmäßige Besuche beim Zahnarzt, aber der Junge ist einfach uneinsichtig. Seine Mundhöhle badet halt einfach regelmäßig in Unmengen Zucker. Und zwar permanent.
- I genuinely feel like L’s monster speech is more or less just self-loathing rather than an objective observation of himself. I feel like once a piece of media leaves the artist’s mind, however a viewer interprets it, especially when the text itself suggests it more than anything, should be considered entirely valid. This is one of those situations.
The whole “L is a cold, stoic monster” thing just never really felt true, even though Obha insists on it. I’m not sure what his motivation for this might be, probably to make death note seem edgier than it is, colder and more morally gray, but tbh it loses depth under that lens.
I always interpreted L as so hypersensitive and lonely that he doesn’t know how to actually process it or communicate it appropriately, probably because of what I believe (and many others) is a case of autistic alexithymia. I think it made his death matter and it struck so much harder. It had more thematic implications on his and light’s relationship (lawlight aside Lmfao, even just the surface level friendship)
I think after years of having people run it into the ground that you will never be normal, that you are dysfunctional in your relationships, and that you’re a selfish liar would ultimately fuck up your perception of yourself. I think that’s L’s problem. He was always just a tool to other people— wealth for Watari and a mentor for the kids. He never got the chance to prove himself capable of human emotion so at this point he just believes what people have to say about him. I think his death is actually a rebuttal to this idea. That’s why the monster speech is post-death. It’s supposed to show you how L viewed himself vs how he really was. How his sensitivity and desperation for friendship and love killed him. I can talk about why I think L not convicting Light was a choice if you guys want, but yeah, that’s my take on the matter. Obha aside.
- I thoroughly believe L should have stimmed more canonically. He did, in his own way, yk lots of chewing and visual stims, like stacking or playing w his food and his constant want to be chewing on or tasting sumthn. BUT GIVE HIM FIDGET TOYS! LET HIM ROCK BACK N FORTH BRO HE SITS IN THE PERFECT POSITION DUDE! UGHHH! Like yea he wasn’t supposed to be autistic (from what I’ve seen in forums and wtv) and I assume L tries hard to mask even if he doesn’t mask everything. But I wanna see him stimmmm! ([tumblr](<https://www.tumblr.com/puppersfluid8xd/741228519667941376/i-thoroughly-believe-l-should-have-stimmed-more?source=share>))
- Als Light und L aneinander gekettet sind, ist irgendwann im Sommer 2004 glaub ich, dreht Light ein bisschen durch. Die hocken seit Wochen in dem kack Gebäude rum, gehen nur selten mal raus, die Handschellen sind unangenehm, masturbieren ist unangenehm, die Gespräche sind unangenehm, Misa nervt, Light kann sich auf nix konzentrieren, kriegt seinen Schulkram nur schwer gemacht, der ist in den letzten Zügen seiner Pubertät, L nervt wie scheiße, L stinkt, es ist ein absolutes Desaster. Ganz davon zu schweigen, dass Light der permanenten Anschuldigung ausgetzt ist, der aktuell größte Massenmörder der fucking Geschichte zu sein und er aber in his mind, es nicht ist. Dann stellt Light grade auch noch seine Sexualität in Frage, teils wegen L, teils wegen Misa, es ist verwirrend (Light ist in dem Kontext, in dem AU aroace, aber er denkt, er sei hetero. Für eine kurze Zeit vermutet er, schwul zu sein, weil er ne komische Verbindung zu L spürt, aber das ist keine sexuelle Begierde, sondern was anderes, komplizierteres.
Einmal hocken die in einer der Suites von dem Hochhausdingens und Light ist einfach am Limit. Unfassbar gereizt. Ich weiß noch nicht so genau, wies dazu kommt, aber es bricht ein Handgemenge aus zwischen L und Light. Vielleicht sagt auch einfach keiner was in dem Szenario, es sind aber die Blicke, holy shit. Light sieht in L grade ALLES, was sein Leben bisher auf den Kopf gestellt hat, und zwar im negativen Sinne. Der hat so einen Hass auf den Typ. Und Light geht L richtig heftig an. Die prügeln sich nicht, sondern es artet ziemlich schnell darin aus, dass Light L aufs Bett drückt und die Hände um seinen Hals legt oder er sein Knie ein bisschen zu fest in Ls Schritt drückt. Und es ist nicht so wirklich klar, was da grade abgeht. L kanns nicht einordnen, was passiert “Will der mich flachlegen oder umbringen?? Egal, was es ist, es sind wertvolle Informationen und ich lass ihn einfach mal machen”. L wehrt sich nur so halb gegen das, was Light macht, hat seine Augen wie Kameras permanent ohne zu blinzeln auf Light gerichtet; a la “mach, was du machen musst, Light. Wenn du mich umbringst, haben wir wenigstens einen Mord von dir auf Kamera. Wenn du mcih umbringst, hab ich dich an den Eiern.” und vielleicht ist sich L selbst auch nicht so sicher, ob Light ihn vielleicht grade auf ne GANZ verquere Art und Weise anmacht?? Ist das sexuelle Begierde oder Mordlust?? KEINER WEIß ES! Und die anderen im Gebäude kriegen das natürlich auf Kamera mit, was da im Zimmer passiert und rufen an, rennen hin, etc.
Eigentlich würd ichs gerne so auflösen, dass L sich am Ende doch noch wehrt und Light mit den Ketten so festpinnt, dass Light sich nicht draus befreien kann und total degradierend aufm Bett liegt, sich windend und besiegt, während L keuchend daneben steht. Um L wenigstens DIESEN Sieg zu gönnen.
- considers Light his only friend (I would argue that Watari is his friend, but maybe the reason he doesn’t count him is because he sees Watari as more of a father figure than just a friend.)
- **TUMBLR ASK** | Ok first, hello :D
I don't know if it's just me interpreting it that way, but from the little you showed, L in this AU is more "human" so to speak, like at least he shows emotions, and is a bit cringey in some ways (I love that ). Will you show more of him? (I'm not demanding, I'm just asking, sorry), like, does he care about these children? Did he feel bad about Beyond's death at the hands of Kira? Is he autistic or just way too weird?
I would love love love to show more L!! The thing is I’m having trouble finding things about him and thinking of scenarios for him to act out. L is super inactive in general. I can only see him sitting there, thinking, talking, not even changing facial expression. And that’s some pretty boring stuff to draw, innit? I’m also having a hard time imagining L having some sort of everyday life that would allign with what people normally do. That makes him absolutely unrelatable.
Do you guys have any headcanons or scenarios for L that would be interesting to draw without being too out of character? If you want me draw L, give me something to work with!
The way I put it so far, yes, he absolutely cares about the kids at Wammy’s. He wants to give the kind of help to them he needed when he was younger. That doesn’t mean he’s doing a good job but at least he *tries*. Something that always kinda bothered me with how people see the relationship between L and the Wammy’s kids is how L is often portrayed as being a cuddly dad-like figure. The way I want to portray him is that L is not and never intends to be some sort of parental figure for any of the kids and the kids don’t view him as that either. Nobody is having soft feelings for L and they for sure ain’t cuddling when they meet. The contact between the kids and L is always professional. Friendly but always with a respectful distance. Keep in mind that all of these characters probably don’t like their personal bubble invaded and have a weird relationship with physical contact. L is just “some dude that smells funny” to the kids. And L sees the kids as “hyperactive tiny adults with sticky hands”.
L probably didn’t feel remorse about Beyonds death but rather about everything that happened before. About all the things that made Beyond become what he was.
And yeah, L is 100% autistic. He kinda falls into the adorkable aspie trope, if you’re familiar with that. A bit like Sheldon from Big Bang Theory or Sherlock Holmes. Like, all of his weird traits are portrayed as quirky instead of annoying, distracting or otherwise negatively.
- Every time he’s at Wammy’s for a visit, L treats himself generously at the chocolate supplys. The same chocolate that’s also given out as rewards to the students. And when he’s around for the special assignment for Mello he tells the staff “Bah what kind of naff chocolate is that?? That’s what you give out nowadays? Did you ever try Lindt, they’re really good - go get some in the future.” “Uuh whatever you say, Justus.”
And they had Lindt at Wammy’s ever since, that’s where Mello got his taste for quality from haha. They 100% give out these little golden chocolate bunnies but Roger makes sure to prep the tiny bells before handing them out. You don’t want to be in a building with 60 hyperactive kids stimming with tiny little bells all day long.
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**ASPERGER’S**
When Ukita is killed by *the Second Kira* outside the building of Sakura TV, Aizawa is urgent to rush to the building, assuming that *Kira* that must be down there. L argues against him, stating that it'd practically be a certainty that *Kira* would kill him. Aizawa grows frustrated over L's seemingly cold and
rationalizing tone, and eventually he resorts to a physical confrontation; he grabs L by his shoulder, cursing at him; as L delivers his famous quote *(that there's a great difference between being willing to risk your life and deliberately doing something you know would cost you your life)*, he is also seen shaking uncontrollably in his feet and the overall posture seems emotionally disturbed. This is *hands-down* a symptom of AS. He seemed like he was attempting to suppress a lurking emotional meltdown, as being touched can be excruciating for a great portion of people with AS.
- only eats sweets (“samefooding”)
- bad/improper posture while sitting and standing
- large/dilated pupils
- speaks in a monotone voice
- rarely makes eye contact
- sits with his knees pressed against his chest (common in Autistic people, possibly a pressure-related stim)
- needs help bathing and getting dressed
- always wears the same clothes
- avoids wearing socks (possibly because of sensory overstimulation, and possibly because socks limit mobility of his toes and prevent him from stimming by wiggling and tapping them like he normally does)
- holds most objects using minimal touch/contact
- does/says inappropriate things without thinking about social consequences
- toe tapping
- presses and tugs on his lips a lot
- compulsive eating
- stacking objects
- his meltdown upon hearing about Shinigami for the second time
- “I’ll give you this strawberry if you keep it a secret.”
- self-described as “childish” (Autistic people are often seen as childish, and many embrace this as a part of their personality.)
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**L VS KIRA**
(in einem Industieland) INTERPOL
”alleine letzte Woche waren es 52 Tote! Und das sind nur die bekannten Fälle! Alle Opfer sind an Herzversagen gestorben! Alle waren Verbrecher, denen wir auf der Spur waren oder die bereits inhaftiert waren!”
L: Aha, jetzt rührt sich die schwerfällige INterpol auch endlich” - L ist also schon lange vor der INterpol-Konferenz an dem Fall dran. Allerdings ist nicht bekannt, wann diese Konferenz ist.
Okay, Moment. Hol up. Light findet das Death note an einem Freitag. Exakt eine Woche später, an einem Freitag kommt Lind L Tailor im Fernsehen um. HOLY FUCK IST L SCHNELL. Das bedeutet wiederum, wenn die Interpol sagt, dass das die Opfer von nur einer Woche sind, dass die Konferenz wahrscheinlich an DIESEM Freitag stattgefunden hat und dass noch am gleichen Tag die Ausstrahlung mit Lind L Tailor kommt. PHEW An diesem Freitag ist sogar schon eine Webseite zu Kiras Ehren im Internet aufgetaucht und die Nachrichten berichten über Kira.
LIND L TAILOR
”weltweite Ausstrahlung (…) wird simultan ins Japanische übersetzt” Das heißt, der Lind spricht wahrscheinlich englisch.
”ein Serienmord, der systematisch an Verbrechern begangen wird”
”Kira, du kannst also töten, ohne selbst Hand anzulegen (…) er war ein Verbrecher, über den nicht im Fernsehen oder im Internet berichtet wurde und den die Polizei unter strengster Geheimhaltung verhaftet hatte.”
”Aus irgendeinem Grund kannst du mich offenbar nicht töten. Es gibt also auch Menschen, die du nicht ermorden kannst. Danke für den Beweis.”
”Diese Ausstrahlung wurde nur in der Kantoregion in Japan ausgestrahlt”
”Das erste Opfer in deiner Mordserie war der Amokläufer von Shinjuku” “um deine Mordmethode zu testen” “das Opfer auffällig unauffällig”
”Ich werde dich finden und aus dem Verkehr ziehen, das schwöre ich! Ich bin die Gerechtigkeit!”
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**BAD HYGIENE**
L riecht. Der hat auch so dunkle Ränder am Nacken und so. Seine Hände sind immer irgendwie bapsig und schmierig, bah. Der hat auch ganz schnell so richtig große Schweißflecken an seinen Kleidern.
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